Well it has been over 2 months since my last post. Life has been wild to say the least and getting things in order has taken priority! Here is a quick update on how everything has been going!
Probation- Ive finished all my DWI classes, counseling, and community service. All that I have left is my monthly fee and a few AA meetings. After I have finished my mandatory meetings I'm still going to continue going. I love the group I go to and have grown alot closer to my HP and have figured out more about myself than I could have ever done on my own!
Work (or lack there of)- I don't work at the store I was working for anymore. I started making artsy type stuff to try and sell, but that wasn't as awesome as I pictured it going. I'm going to continue doing stuff like it, but not so much for selling right away. I wanna get alot of stuff done and try to attend a trade days like event and sell there. Ive turned in my FAFSA to see about getting money for school and until I figure all that out I'm putting in applications with a few places to look into working somewhere awesome. PREFERABLY Michael's so I can get a discount on art supplies :)
Health - Ive lost about 57 pounds so far. I have 15 till I hit my goal. Which freaks me out because 72 pounds is ALOT! Man I was a fatty! There isn't really anything I can do about the past but try and prevent it from turning into my future, so I'm not too worried about it.
Life in general- My relationships with my friends have been going really well. And I've been hanging out with my brother alot which has been really awesome. Me and Trent have hit a few walls. He wasn't drinking at first and now he is, sometimes alot and its been really hard to deal with. I have so many feelings about it that I'm pretty sure its going to end up in its own post, but its part of the last 2 months, so touching on it wont hurt. I decided with alot of advice from a few people that I was going to let him be and do what he wants and find my own things to do while he is drinking. I cant sit around and watch him drink and get fucked up and it not effect my sobriety- so taking myself out of the situation at least, seemed necessary. Its been 2 weeks since it was decided and things already seem to be looking up. They may not stay that way, but I'm accepting of that. I cant control anybody else and I need not forget it. I love Trent but my sobriety is the MOST important thing to me right now, and needs to be that way until I'm strong enough to deal with bullshit on my own.
I guess that will be on for now. Ill try and be back and not take so long between posts, but no promises!
Love my supporters and praying for haters--
thankful, blessed, and sober -Rachel
